Day 31 MIA

Been Busy!

 I haven't blogged in a while. On the one hand, I have been "busy." On the other hand, I always have some leisure time. I just between My Fitness Pal (Blueberry Jill if you want to find me), and a few Instagram updates a week, I just felt like I was doing enough.

Skinny School and Low Carb

I started rereading, Skinny School, by Julie Gordon. This is basically a romance/diet manual advocating for a low carb diet. I have been following it for nearly a week. What I have found is it keeps me from getting too famished and I just eat less because I run out of things to eat. I mean how much meat, cheese, and eggs, can you have. I do have low carb veggie choices of course, but I am having an issue with my tooth (my wisdom teeth are beginning to get infected-the dentist said due to their angle (I have a small mouth)-there is little he can do, but send me to have them out. I don't want to spend the money. I have pain when I eat veggies, especially greens, on one particular side).

Either way, I will start back with the daily updates, so you can see my eating plan. When I had carbs it was very easy to get up to 1500 calories a day. Having less than 50 carbs and only 15 grams of sugar, I find it difficult to get up to 1200. 

I still haven't really been exercising. I did a slow hike with the kids, but they weren't up for hills, so it was more a walk, and my four year old is all about stopping along the way to complain his legs hurt. 

I just had my second covid shot, and that appears to have gone fine. My arm is a little sore, I feel a little bit of head cloudiness (but I really think it is the lack of carbs clouding my head). I hope it passes, because I am ditsy enough on my own; I don't need extra help in the airhead department (did I just date myself?).

Pictures?

It is time for more pictures in my tight clothes to scan for progress. I am a little worried. Although I am down 11 pounds from my highest (definitely water-retaining) day five weeks ago, I don't really see any body changes. But monthly pics seem like the thing to do. Since my marriage has finally crumbled-I have been holding the cracks together for awhile-I don't have anyone to take my picture. I mean, I have my grown daughter or my 10 year old son or my 8 year old son. My eight year old seems like the least weird choice, but still. Plus I want morning pictures, so I might have to wait until the weekend. 

Weight Loss Fears

I do have some fears-namely sagging. I mean I had six kids with all the stretch marks and natural body destruction someone with unlucky genes has. But now to lose weight at my age (47), I am concerns it will just be saggier and my face will be wrinklier, and I hope I am making the right choice. I guess I can regain it, if I don't like the way it looks. :o)

Initially, I had called this Sophia Jill's Weight Loss Journey. And that is very hopeful and inspiring.  But almost too saccharinely hopeful and inspiring. The Ick factor was too great for me. So for now, it is Losing It!, again unoriginal, but maybe the right name will just hit me at some point. Subconcious, get to work!

To be honest, I am doing really well. What I am dealing with in my personal life is so challenging, I could easily bury myself in brownie batter and cookie dough. I feel a quiet, lonely depression hanging over. But truthfully, it would be weird NOT to be a little depressed and lonely going through such a life change. And adding the highs and lows of sugar addiction to the mix would not help. I will admit to sneaking Stevia packets from time to time. It is probably just a matter of time before some scientist discovers Stevia is as bad as the rest of the sweeteners, might as well enjoy it while I can.

Take Care, Friends!

Sophia Jill